| say to wit i am of predetermined sexual orientation but not quite in focus and the boogie person has guessed as much in a medium thick mentally threatening way like an oddly reflective smoke covered mirror or fair living with clean memory true to form as original as motion sane at the speed of intelligent interest to the mercifully poetic gosvamis and one says these things take time so i am going to be careful how i feel and don't like hearing of it taking time already from the perspective of one getting a bad feeling about all this like it is useless to go for Krsna consciousness in a crowd that is atmospheric in effect from the distance afforded by malice aforethought dear mind yes dear i hear you are ready for a bath in an atmosphere of three controlled by one of no interest to one after one after one that atmosphere smears the mirror with the force of being lusty in poor taste the force of that atmosphere is lust in poor taste that atmosphere smears the mirror of one being slightly controlled by one as one is not even interested in that one like this no dear i am just asking you nothing about it as one knows not to concentrate on giving ground in any way to the atmosphere of three modes those three modes of material are awesome in effect dangerous it is dangerous to contact one force of lust in three modes of material energy smearing the mirror in poor taste that is atmosphere unbeholden to the stiff morality play of one approaching life precisely alone for whatever that was all about it is not for the faint of heart swooning at the very idea whatever that was all about is insufficient for one as much as one is no matter how one entertains oneself playing at being stiff with morality as one approaches life in the atmosphere of three modes of material energy the mirror of one you see is smeared with poor taste one has to have mighty fine association to get out of the atmosphere of three modes of material precisely being one approaching life stiff with morality is painful to say the least dear mind don't try to go home alone listen i know you are familiar with it dear i know you can do better than that stiff and how familiarity breeds contempt in the atmosphere of three so listen that does not mean i am alive already and that's enough one has to be refreshed to remember you i agree but still one is not alone in this way stiff is one no dear one no we are confused with one who is smeared as the mirror of one is smeared with poor taste in the three modes of material the atmosphere is one of confusion stiff as one no stiff with morality at play one has to realize one is one but not alone one will consistently fail to realize how one is alone alone one succeeds in confusing oneself with one leaving one to the resources of that which is not for the faint of heart dear mind i know you listen by the right by the right by the left right left and it pains me to think of being left alone listen you are you we are i say one is not so alone as it is confusing the issue to realize how we are so not alone to be stiff in the atmosphere of three but you will tolerate whatever i know i know you get into it surfacing too much dear mind listen we are familiar with it already and feeling rather contemptuous yes listen it is insane i am insane dear mind i need to remember more listen there is more you need mighty fine association more like i do than one is willing or thinking to feel the atmosphere out listen thou shalt not stiffen up on me my dear mind i froze up inside when i saw it was that which is not but not for you what can i do for you my dear how can i begin to tell you more than this we need to listen in the association of others forever feeling willing and thinking hey i know you hey this is life coming from life no matter what that was all about i know you are in need of remembering more mighty fine association as life is more than a curve around the bend dear don't go around the bend laughing like an idiot dear yes dear chant Hare Krsna nicely i know you are pregnant with ideas so are we elated no sorry but one of us has to remain sober even as this is the way we are just now taking turns don't go around the bend laughing like an idiot dear yes dear i know you have a sense of humor that's alright just don't go the way of the elephant laughing like an accursed idiot thank you very much dear i know you are so real like this but anyway get right out and tell the others to chant Hare Krsna at speed dear God speed the others will get right back to you and i feeling right at home somehow or other dear to one so you no doubt we are all kind of dear knowing you and i shouldn't laugh like an idiot eh yes dear we have to remember mighty fine association you and i know together as she never asks why we can't go anywhere alone yes dear not her she is in the atmosphere of three modes of material energy a mighty caution in the strong sense of the word she has the power of the weak in mind as it is an on going concern you see her she is still around dear listening she is a power house of a listener don't laugh like an idiot dear listen she is listening aren't we all though i am listening to the way i am listening so suddenly like this aren't we all listening to Krsna too of course one is imagining us all listening to each other listening but as far as i know one should never hold a single breath waiting to hear silence so precisely in the whole atmosphere Krsna can hear how there is no greater power than listening to the sound of Krsna listening honestly you know Krsna listening to Krsna you know the listening is powerful absolutely the listening is going on such that one is encouraged to realize the truth is real close in the heart of course the realization is straight like one said one has no other yes dear no dear yes dear no other no other way to realize how straight is the sound of Krsna listening well listen to the listening of Krsna penetrating no hidden truth stands for Krsna all inspired to hide in that which is not fall away away away dear there is no greater power Krsna has the power to listen like there is no other no other way to realize you have to realize how you are listening to Krsna you realize the power of Krsna is in truth straight as He listens powerfully the way He listens you know there is no other no other way to realize the truth go on listening to the way Krsna is the most attractive dear mind and listening to Krsna i will realize the truth is sound only Krsna Krsna only knows how sound the truth is but there is a way yes no yes no yes no other way to realize Krsna listens and you realize how you are subject to the truth according to Krsna only since or as only Krsna can hear the sound of us all listening dear as He is the only one who can listen so powerfully the truth is sound according to Krsna in other words as much as i have an idea who i am pleasing Krsna is free free to hear our differences separately yes dear free to isolate you be careful dear respect Krsna He is home to those who listen to the way He is the most attractive listener He who listens is sound in truth He is Krsna the most attractive one not you you idiot figment of the imagination or not i wish Krsna couldn't hear how clumsy you make me feel as i do believe you are such an idiot but anyway feeling clumsy is scary i need His divine grace Srila Prabhupada to reassure me time and time again don't interfere you idiot i know you are disconnected from reality somehow or other otherwise how could i feel this way for shame shame you are shameful idiocy imagined i imagine you are to blame you idiot even as i fail to isolate you properly the imagined presence of you is disgusting me no doubt i am better off listening to the mind like this at least like this there is hope trust me hope is better than having a monkey on behind like you i imagine you hate me to the core being so disconnected from reality like that you you shameless piece of junk you lousy figment of the imagination you know what you remind me of the accursed false ego of late posing as one rightly situated i wish Krsna couldn't hear how you how how much of a victim i have become in relation to you but it's true Krsna can hear how i imagine you are to blame for the clumsy aspect of being predisposed to this failing you foul mouthed long in the tooth body of work personified like the leavings of a ghostly haunted one you article of bad news in the shape of artifice possessed with me you snake in the grass lesson damn near impossible to learn you object of frustration you freak of nature in the atmosphere of three oh how i wish Krsna would never hear of you but it's true i lost it to you in the imagination i lost it as one knows it is like me already i am conditioned to thinking you are so to blame for the way i am hoping against hope yes even as i am not quite sure what it means to hope against hope you see i lost it so now you know i imagine so at any rate i imagine Krsna will be somewhat amused by all this but don't laugh like an idiot eh listen to how there is no other no other way no other way to be real yes yes it's true i imagined you were real but Krsna doesn't have to do it fortunately fortunately one depends on Krsna to move right along all along one has depended on Krsna you should listen to one yes i imagine you should just listen to one depending on Krsna of course Krsna has one in mind as it is said there is no there is no there is no other no other way no other way to realize Krsna is listening one listens to Krsna and realizes how He is not you you idiot one realizes how Krsna is feeling sound and sounding interesting i don't have to imagine how He is there is a way to realize how He is feeling as He is true to form listening to us no matter no matter no matter how clumsy i am in relation to one such as you Krsna is nice and free to isolate you with a sense of humor listen can you imagine being impersonal like Krsna is not a chance and she never asks why Krsna should you even suggest such a thing Krsna will take it personally that's why there is no need for her to ask why as soon as i hear about how it is impersonal without fail i lose it the momentum is there just like that which is not like this at all but Krsna He takes it personally as much as she never asks why Krsna knows how to defend Himself from such attacks so there you are simply a figment of the imagination no matter how clumsy i am honestly there is hope in understanding why she never asks why you idiot i am going to change my dear mind about you sooner or later listening in reality the inevitable we all know how to listen to Krsna expressing Himself in more than one relationship as He is the original character of the living force eternally the Person of interest to those who honor divinity more so than any old mystery no matter how confidential the mystery itself just so happens to be go on go and tell the truth you are in reality the inevitable no figment of the imagination like this as Krsna takes it personally and she never asks why as some of us will go on and on ganging ourselves with the likes of you sure it gives one the creeps even as one only temporarily has been experienced by some punk and has been only temporarily punked one way or another it's true one gets the creeps and my my my dear mind is spinning so feeling the torque of being driven yes i will feel no choice in respect to being simultaneously different even as one has realized one is simultaneously one and different it's true we have a feeling a feeling we can't hide no choice is a feeling we feel alive but to realize it is our constitutional position to be simultaneously one and different oh and oh my dear mind oh oh oh how i feel driven of course the Boys don't mind driving around with me They do so make me feel like They are so cute They like driving around in an echo with me Subhadra devi says she can take it or leave it of course it is only one little car we are not in the van so to speak it is just a toyota echo dear but the Boys are going to have some fun with me you see Subhadra devi has to work at calming us a little now and again They like to rough house but like i said i never have to suddenly stop the car and our little song goes on echoing the way i don't say nothing impersonal makes any sense whatsoever because because because i have to realize one has a sense of humor as much as one can't have experienced too much satisfaction expecting life to ask why it is true of course i am not to feel overqualified or just too under qualified to experience pastimes as it were in the true sense of the word love but it's true there is no other way to remember the extreme momentous force being conscious of the blissful Subhadra devi i know from how She loves the purity of a sweet glass of water while out in the car with the Boys and i the road is kind of dusty and the car is too that's why the Boys are known to go ahead and take a whole bottle of raspberry lemonade soon as we get back to the car after shopping and drink to Their hearts' content trust me it is what it is and clearly one can see how we did so eagerly agree Subhadra devi should have a glass of water with which to drink some so it is that kind of glass you see how She understands the bottles are kind of big don't you clearly she had to have a nice glass with which to drink so a formal glass of water is perfect for Her trust me She understands how clear a glass of water must be yes clearly both glass and water can be seen together as simultaneously one and different so She has a nice glass of water yes with which to drink raspberry lemonade or water as cool and refreshing as a glass that is clearly life like cool water and formally was a little water in shape kind of made to hold a little more than just water like a glass that can just as easily break and shatter the calm cool feeling of drinking with the Boys as i echo my sentiments exactly yes dear no one is drinking it like one of us thinks to do She loves how She has a vessel from which to drink that is both a glass of water and water in shape like a nice glass yes dear i know it is best to have a sense of humor at any rate nothing is impersonal and neither is Her nice glass of water misconstrued to be of a similar nature don't ask why it is ignorance to be wise where it is folly to be blissful that's all nonsense listen the truth is it is said ignorance is bliss where it is folly to be wise surely to God you can tell the difference no matter what better follow the four regulative principles wherever it is you can tell clearly you can tell one way to make it easy to have nothing to hide is open to all as Hrishikesha is the master of the senses and no false ego is for you so nothing is potentially impersonal like time to have a drink of water conscious simultaneously a different kind of life liquid as whole one clear to go is seeing Krsna sound prime coursing original life a reservoir and river like listening the stream is connecting to living the way siding with the fluid width of the river more than a stream strength is flowing Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare |
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