say

to wit i am of
predetermined

sexual orientation but not quite in focus and the

boogie
person has guessed as much in a

medium

thick mentally threatening
way

like an oddly

reflective
smoke covered mirror

or

fair living with clean memory true to

form
as

original
as motion sane at the speed of intelligent interest
to
the mercifully poetic
gosvamis
and one says
these

things take time
so
i

am

going to be

careful
how

i

feel

and

don't

like
hearing of it

taking

time
already
from

the

perspective of one

getting
a
bad

feeling about all

this
like

it

is

useless

to
go

for

Krsna

consciousness

in
a

crowd

that

is

atmospheric in effect
from
the

distance
afforded by malice

aforethought

dear

mind
yes

dear
i hear you

are

ready for a

bath
in

an

atmosphere of three
controlled

by
one
of

no

interest to one after one after one that atmosphere

smears

the

mirror
with the force of being

lusty

in poor taste the force
of
that

atmosphere
is

lust

in

poor
taste that atmosphere

smears

the

mirror
of
one

being

slightly
controlled by

one

as
one

is not even

interested
in

that

one
like

this

no

dear i am

just

asking
you

nothing

about
it as one

knows

not
to

concentrate on giving
ground
in any way
to
the

atmosphere
of
three

modes

those

three modes of
material

are

awesome
in effect dangerous

it

is dangerous to

contact

one force of

lust
in

three

modes
of

material

energy
smearing

the

mirror

in poor taste that is

atmosphere
unbeholden

to

the
stiff

morality play of one approaching
life

precisely alone for
whatever

that

was

all about it

is

not

for

the faint of

heart
swooning

at

the very idea whatever that
was

all

about
is

insufficient

for

one

as much as
one

is
no

matter how one

entertains

oneself
playing

at

being

stiff with morality as one

approaches

life in the
atmosphere
of

three

modes of material

energy
the
mirror

of

one
you

see is smeared
with

poor
taste
one

has

to have mighty

fine
association to get

out

of the atmosphere of three

modes

of
material

precisely
being

one

approaching
life

stiff

with
morality
is painful to

say

the

least
dear mind don't

try
to

go

home alone listen i know

you

are familiar with
it

dear
i

know

you

can
do

better than that
stiff

and

how

familiarity
breeds

contempt in the

atmosphere
of

three
so

listen

that does not mean i
am

alive already and
that's

enough
one

has

to
be

refreshed
to
remember

you
i

agree

but
still
one is not

alone

in

this

way
stiff
is

one
no

dear

one

no

we
are

confused with one

who
is
smeared

as the mirror

of
one

is

smeared with poor
taste
in the three

modes

of material the

atmosphere
is

one

of confusion stiff as one

no

stiff
with

morality at play
one
has

to

realize
one

is

one

but
not

alone
one
will

consistently

fail to realize how one
is

alone alone one

succeeds
in confusing oneself with one
leaving
one
to
the resources of

that

which is not

for

the

faint

of

heart
dear
mind
i
know

you

listen
by the right by the

right

by

the

left

right

left
and
it

pains

me to think of being left alone

listen
you

are

you
we
are i say one is not so alone as

it

is confusing the issue to
realize
how we are so not
alone
to

be

stiff in the atmosphere of
three

but

you

will tolerate whatever

i
know
i

know
you

get into it
surfacing
too

much

dear

mind
listen we are
familiar
with it already
and
feeling rather contemptuous yes listen

it

is

insane
i am insane

dear

mind i need to remember
more
listen

there

is

more

you

need

mighty
fine
association

more
like i do

than
one

is

willing or thinking to feel
the
atmosphere out listen

thou

shalt not stiffen

up

on me my

dear

mind
i

froze up inside when i saw it was that

which
is

not

but
not

for
you

what can i do for

you
my
dear

how can i

begin

to

tell

you more than

this
we

need

to
listen

in
the

association of others forever feeling

willing

and thinking hey
i
know

you

hey
this
is

life

coming from life no matter

what

that
was

all about i know you

are

in need of

remembering

more

mighty

fine association as
life

is

more
than a curve

around

the bend dear don't go

around

the

bend

laughing like an

idiot
dear
yes

dear
chant

Hare Krsna nicely i know
you

are
pregnant

with ideas so are we

elated
no
sorry

but one of
us

has

to
remain

sober

even as this

is

the
way
we

are

just

now
taking

turns

don't
go

around the bend laughing like

an
idiot

dear
yes

dear
i

know

you

have

a sense of humor that's
alright

just

don't
go the way of the elephant laughing like an

accursed

idiot
thank

you

very

much
dear

i know you

are

so

real

like
this
but

anyway

get

right

out

and

tell
the

others

to
chant Hare Krsna

at
speed

dear

God

speed

the

others

will

get
right

back

to you and

i

feeling

right

at home somehow
or

other

dear

to one so

you

no doubt we

are

all
kind

of
dear

knowing
you
and

i

shouldn't laugh like an idiot

eh
yes

dear

we

have

to remember mighty

fine

association
you
and

i
know

together

as

she

never
asks

why
we

can't
go

anywhere
alone
yes

dear
not her she

is

in
the

atmosphere

of

three

modes

of material energy
a

mighty

caution
in
the

strong

sense

of the word
she

has

the

power of the
weak

in
mind

as it is

an
on
going

concern you see

her
she

is

still
around
dear

listening

she
is

a
power

house of a
listener

don't laugh like an idiot

dear
listen
she

is
listening

aren't
we

all
though
i

am

listening to the
way

i
am

listening
so

suddenly like this aren't we

all
listening

to

Krsna too of

course

one
is

imagining us all listening to

each
other

listening

but as far

as
i

know
one

should

never

hold

a

single

breath
waiting

to hear silence
so

precisely
in

the

whole
atmosphere
Krsna

can
hear

how

there

is no greater power than listening to the sound of Krsna

listening

honestly you know

Krsna

listening

to
Krsna you know the listening

is

powerful

absolutely

the

listening
is

going

on

such

that one is

encouraged
to

realize

the

truth
is

real

close
in

the

heart

of course the

realization
is

straight

like

one

said one has
no

other

yes

dear
no

dear

yes
dear

no

other

no
other

way to realize

how

straight is the

sound
of
Krsna

listening

well

listen

to the listening
of

Krsna

penetrating
no

hidden

truth

stands

for
Krsna

all inspired to hide in that which
is

not
fall

away

away
away

dear

there is no

greater

power Krsna has
the

power to listen

like
there

is

no

other
no

other

way to realize
you
have

to

realize

how
you
are

listening

to

Krsna

you realize the
power

of

Krsna
is

in

truth

straight
as

He

listens

powerfully
the way He listens you know there is no

other

no

other
way

to

realize the truth

go

on

listening
to
the

way
Krsna

is

the
most attractive dear

mind

and

listening
to

Krsna
i
will

realize

the
truth is sound

only

Krsna

Krsna

only
knows

how sound the

truth

is but there

is
a

way

yes
no

yes no yes no other

way
to

realize

Krsna

listens
and

you
realize
how

you

are

subject to the
truth
according

to
Krsna

only

since
or
as only Krsna can hear the sound

of

us

all
listening

dear
as
He

is

the

only one who can listen so powerfully

the
truth

is

sound

according

to

Krsna
in other words as much

as
i

have

an idea who

i

am pleasing Krsna
is

free

free

to hear our differences separately

yes
dear

free

to isolate you be careful

dear
respect

Krsna

He

is
home to those

who
listen

to
the

way

He
is

the most attractive

listener
He

who

listens
is

sound
in

truth He is
Krsna
the

most
attractive one not you you

idiot

figment of the

imagination

or
not
i

wish

Krsna couldn't hear how clumsy
you

make me feel

as
i

do

believe
you

are such an

idiot

but

anyway

feeling
clumsy
is

scary i need His divine
grace
Srila Prabhupada to reassure me time and

time

again don't interfere
you

idiot i know

you

are

disconnected
from

reality

somehow

or

other
otherwise

how

could
i

feel

this
way
for

shame

shame you are

shameful

idiocy

imagined
i

imagine
you

are

to blame you

idiot

even
as
i

fail

to isolate you properly the

imagined

presence of you is disgusting

me
no

doubt
i

am

better

off

listening to the

mind

like

this
at

least

like

this
there

is
hope
trust

me

hope

is

better
than
having

a

monkey

on

behind

like
you

i imagine you

hate
me to the

core
being

so
disconnected from reality

like

that
you

you

shameless

piece of junk
you

lousy

figment

of the imagination

you

know

what
you

remind
me

of

the
accursed

false

ego of late

posing

as

one

rightly

situated
i

wish

Krsna couldn't hear how you

how

how
much

of a victim
i
have

become in relation

to
you

but
it's
true

Krsna

can
hear how i

imagine

you

are

to

blame

for the clumsy

aspect
of
being

predisposed to this
failing
you

foul

mouthed
long

in the tooth body of

work
personified

like
the

leavings
of

a

ghostly haunted one
you

article of bad

news
in

the

shape of artifice
possessed

with

me

you
snake

in the grass

lesson
damn
near

impossible to learn

you

object

of

frustration
you

freak

of

nature in the
atmosphere

of
three

oh

how
i

wish

Krsna

would

never hear of

you
but it's true

i

lost

it
to

you
in

the

imagination i lost

it

as

one
knows
it

is like me

already
i

am

conditioned
to

thinking

you

are

so
to

blame

for the way

i

am

hoping
against hope yes

even
as i am

not

quite

sure
what
it

means

to

hope

against
hope you see

i

lost
it

so
now

you
know

i

imagine

so
at

any

rate
i

imagine

Krsna
will

be somewhat amused

by
all

this
but

don't
laugh
like

an

idiot

eh

listen

to how there is no

other

no other way
no

other

way

to be real

yes
yes it's true i imagined

you

were

real

but Krsna doesn't

have

to

do
it

fortunately
fortunately one depends

on

Krsna
to

move

right

along all along
one

has

depended
on
Krsna

you should listen

to
one
yes
i
imagine

you

should

just

listen
to one depending

on

Krsna of course
Krsna
has one in

mind

as

it

is said there is no there is
no

there

is
no other no

other

way
no

other

way
to realize Krsna

is

listening
one

listens to Krsna and realizes

how

He

is

not
you
you idiot one

realizes

how Krsna is

feeling

sound and sounding

interesting
i don't have

to
imagine
how

He

is
there

is
a

way
to realize how

He

is

feeling
as He is

true

to form listening to us
no

matter

no

matter
no

matter how clumsy i am

in

relation to one

such
as

you
Krsna is nice and free

to

isolate you with a sense
of
humor

listen
can
you

imagine

being

impersonal

like
Krsna
is
not
a

chance
and

she

never

asks
why
Krsna

should

you

even
suggest such a

thing

Krsna will take

it

personally
that's

why
there

is

no

need for her to ask

why
as
soon

as
i

hear

about
how it is

impersonal
without
fail

i
lose

it

the
momentum
is

there
just

like

that

which is not

like
this
at
all
but

Krsna

He
takes it personally

as
much

as
she
never

asks

why

Krsna

knows

how
to

defend

Himself
from such attacks so there

you

are
simply

a

figment

of the imagination no matter how clumsy
i

am

honestly

there
is
hope
in
understanding

why

she never asks

why
you

idiot
i

am

going to change my dear

mind

about you sooner

or

later
listening

in

reality

the
inevitable
we all know

how

to listen to
Krsna

expressing Himself in more than

one

relationship as He is the

original

character of the living force

eternally
the
Person

of

interest to those
who
honor
divinity
more so than
any

old
mystery
no

matter

how

confidential

the

mystery

itself
just
so

happens

to
be
go

on
go

and

tell

the

truth
you

are

in

reality
the

inevitable

no
figment of the

imagination
like
this
as
Krsna

takes

it
personally and she

never

asks
why
as some of

us

will

go
on

and
on ganging ourselves with the

likes

of

you
sure

it

gives

one the creeps

even
as

one

only
temporarily
has

been
experienced
by some punk

and
has
been

only

temporarily
punked
one
way
or

another

it's

true
one

gets the creeps and my

my

my dear mind
is

spinning
so

feeling

the
torque
of

being

driven

yes i will feel no

choice
in

respect
to
being

simultaneously

different
even as one

has

realized
one

is simultaneously one
and

different it's true

we

have

a
feeling
a

feeling

we

can't
hide
no

choice
is

a feeling we

feel

alive but to

realize

it
is

our constitutional position
to

be

simultaneously

one and different
oh

and

oh
my

dear

mind

oh
oh

oh
how i feel

driven
of course the

Boys

don't mind driving

around

with

me
They do so make me feel like

They
are

so

cute

They
like

driving

around in an

echo

with
me
Subhadra

devi
says

she

can
take

it

or
leave it of

course
it
is

only

one

little

car
we are not in the

van
so

to

speak
it

is

just

a toyota echo

dear
but

the

Boys

are

going to have some fun
with
me
you
see Subhadra devi
has

to
work

at calming us

a

little

now

and
again
They
like
to

rough

house but like

i
said

i

never
have

to

suddenly
stop

the

car
and

our
little

song

goes
on

echoing
the
way

i don't say

nothing

impersonal makes any sense whatsoever

because

because

because
i
have

to realize one
has

a
sense

of humor as

much

as

one

can't
have
experienced too much

satisfaction
expecting

life

to
ask

why it is

true
of course i

am

not to feel overqualified or

just

too

under
qualified
to

experience

pastimes

as it were

in
the

true

sense

of
the
word

love but it's

true

there is no

other

way to remember the extreme
momentous
force

being

conscious
of
the

blissful

Subhadra

devi
i

know

from
how

She

loves

the purity of

a

sweet
glass
of

water

while out in the car with the Boys and

i

the road is

kind

of dusty and the car is too
that's
why

the

Boys are known to go ahead and take
a
whole

bottle

of raspberry lemonade

soon

as we get back to

the
car
after

shopping

and

drink to Their

hearts'
content
trust

me it is
what

it
is

and

clearly

one can see how we
did

so

eagerly
agree
Subhadra

devi should have a glass

of

water with which

to

drink
some

so it is that kind

of

glass
you
see

how

She understands the
bottles

are

kind

of big don't

you
clearly

she

had
to
have

a
nice

glass
with which to drink so

a

formal

glass

of water is perfect for Her trust

me

She

understands

how

clear a glass

of

water
must

be yes clearly

both

glass and water
can
be

seen

together as simultaneously
one
and different so

She

has a nice

glass

of water yes with which to drink raspberry lemonade

or

water as cool

and
refreshing as a

glass

that

is
clearly
life

like

cool

water
and

formally

was
a

little

water in shape

kind

of
made
to
hold
a

little

more than just
water
like

a

glass

that
can

just

as

easily

break and shatter the calm

cool
feeling of drinking

with
the

Boys
as i echo

my

sentiments
exactly
yes
dear
no

one
is
drinking
it
like

one of us

thinks

to

do
She loves how

She
has a vessel from which to drink

that
is

both

a glass of water and

water

in shape like a nice
glass
yes

dear

i

know

it
is

best

to

have a sense

of
humor

at

any

rate
nothing
is

impersonal
and

neither is Her

nice

glass
of

water
misconstrued

to be of a similar

nature
don't
ask

why

it
is

ignorance
to

be
wise where it is folly

to

be
blissful

that's

all
nonsense

listen
the

truth
is

it
is
said

ignorance
is

bliss where it
is

folly to be
wise
surely

to

God you can
tell

the

difference
no

matter

what

better
follow

the

four regulative principles

wherever

it
is

you

can
tell

clearly
you can tell

one

way

to

make
it

easy to have

nothing

to hide is

open

to
all
as Hrishikesha is

the
master

of
the

senses
and
no

false

ego
is

for

you so nothing

is

potentially

impersonal
like

time
to have a

drink
of

water
conscious
simultaneously
a different kind of life
liquid
as
whole

one

clear
to

go

is
seeing

Krsna

sound

prime coursing original life a reservoir and river like
listening
the

stream

is connecting to

living

the
way

siding

with

the fluid width of the river

more
than
a

stream
strength

is

flowing

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare
atmosphere of three