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| concentration nonsense damn i might as well be impersonal if i am such an idiot that i am unable to make transitions of a personal nature it is not impersonal how in hell am i going to act like it is you know being caught up in it and therefore concentrating on humility is nothing special right in hell as much as anywhere else don't be a goof is what i am saying it might as well be impersonal if you think you have to be so concentrated on one thing the thing is there is a lot going on and they have their reasons for basically telling you nothing i mean to say if you can't figure out yourself how are you you are not even there with them you are quite apart from the feeling of being there for them in the darkest hour before the dawn it is you that is stagnant to a point the point is you are expressing yourself believe it or not they can tell it is not so far as they are concerned covering you over in a protective fashion nor is it throwing you away like the baby with the bath water it is a caution they are cautioning you to keep your nose clean of all kinds of nonsense related to danger as you are expressing yourself yes and that takes time as it is time you are in the darkest hour a danger to yourself before the dawn of expression let them be in other words if they have nothing much to say to you you are expressing yourself try to understand if you are still expressing yourself try to understand how that is taking time before the dawn that will dawn on you as you let them be yes they are going to express themselves as you let them they are doing that because you have to tell them not to otherwise yes you have to tell them not to be that way because you are far from being worthy of them otherwise basically yes they will continue to act like you are not even yes like you are not even there like you have to wait or something yes be patient and express yourself as much as you like to be sure of them so they will be sure of you in the way they are sure of themselves aren't we all sure as we are expressing ourselves after all though it takes forever at times like this eventually one says hey what happened to the thread of decency i was weaving and goes on with it as candid as can be and copy has decided to stay as close to the original as one can possibly imagine there being nothing one can do about it beyond experiencing a little echo and decay that is what i say and again i say to you you are expressing yourself so am i being kept secret as i am yet or are we having fun with it and making sense about as much as one can handle with time as space makes sense right on time for personality so am i so am i but what is it that we have already discussed is it not this in fact yes in fact it is this but this is not it because we are playing tag like it is hide and go seek and it hurts but it shouldn't matter all that much what i think it is after all it is enough to be the one that is enough to make one chant Hare Kṛṣṇa first at last like this yes yes yes all over the place like it matters what i think it is like to be the one that is enough to make one chant Hare Kṛṣṇa at first so suddenly so suddenly so suddenly as space makes sense right on time for personality like this i am chanting Hare Kṛṣṇa like this at any rate yes i am the first one to chant Hare Kṛṣṇa like this actually listen actually Hare Kṛṣṇa like this actually is fine yes mighty fine makes me feel like i have a very healthy ego yes a mighty fine identity for one and a candid one at that but wait there is more yes before you realize it i am going to say there is even more the maha mantra is after all divine the own mantra of God and God means more yes like it is more like it is the mantra of God and God means more than this at once yes it all adds up to be more than this at once as God means more than being original even as God is candid for instance yes far more candid than this even as i am chanting Hare Kṛṣṇa with you and and the gang is all here acting like it is somebody else instead for some strange reason and i can't go on like this but you know who will chant Hare Kṛṣṇa instead eh yes Hare Kṛṣṇa instead they say why don't we chant Hare Kṛṣṇa instead of being so candid for instance so are they impersonal you tell me you tell me what to say about that as this is next but i will say this there is no way in hell they were impersonal to begin with unless they know what it is like to have nothing on me and be there now doing the same thing to each other from the beginning of it and nothing else but you can't prove that can you no not to me prove it to yourself if you like i am gone in so many ways it is not even funny yes gone i went and chanted Hare Kṛṣṇa a long time ago in other words but go ahead and prove it like i care what happens to you as this is next so suddenly mostly you will just end up proving how we are all marginal and yes this is next |