confessing to there
once

more
confessing

to

there
being an idiot

about
i

am
confessing to there

being

a figment yes
a

self

sabotaging
figment of imagination
an
idiot
no

one
likes

is

there
an
idiot
here
an

idiot changing the

mind
like
it

is

there
yes

exactly

like

it

is

there

i am once

more
confessing to being

on

the
phone

with

her

mind

you
we

are

all
on

the phone with
her

a

little

mentally as it

is

a drag to be out
of

service

eh

you

know
the

service
i

mean

it is mental

to
be
on

the

phone

with her she
says
i

am
in maya whispers

kind

of

yes

yes

you
yes you are

yes
yes

you

are

in

maya yes yes

yes

maya
she

says
maya
like

it

is

out
but just between

the
ears
kind

of

out

you

know
strange

news
not

everyone

can tell how

strange

it
is
to be out with her

mind

in between the
ears

until
yes
until it is

on

the
phone
so

much

for

that

at any rate
it

is
you

know some kind
of
weird

party

line of course

one

can be isolated
like
i

said
it

is

weird though i mean either
way
being

on

the phone with
her
she

is

the weird one

it
is

like

her
to

make

one

out to be
schizophrenic
like

that

on

the

phone

all

the
time
you

know
what
i mean it

is

schizophrenia you feel
as

that

little

tingle
of
being

called
out

on

the

phone

mixes you up
i

mean
it

is

not

very
far

out
to

be
on

the phone with a moral
either
not

even

a

moral
compass some would
say
hey
you

know
you
know what it

is

like

to

be in the
middle
of

that
war that war

that

war
is

weird

all the same
that
is

a

war

you
know

there

you see there
is
a

war
between
demons
and ghosts going
on

a phrenitic war
yes

you

can

tell on the
phone

how

frenzied
it

has
gotten
to

the

point

of making you

know

who feel delirious

like
this

you

know i wish you would

get
off the phone
by
the
way

i

mean
don't

stay
on
the

phone with that idiot you

know

very
well

who
it

is

like

being

on

the
phone

i don't want

you

to
be

God
you
idiot

i

am talking straight

listen
you

don't
pay

attention
to

that

idiot on the phone listen
i

am

talking
i

don't
want
you

to be God

i
can

talk
to whomever i

want

like this so
suddenly

you know i don't want

you
to

behave

like

an

idiot
either

listen

get
off the phone

no

you

get
off

the
phone i am

not

talking
to

that

idiot

on the phone
i
talk

straight

to

that

idiot
you
see
that
idiot

don't

talk to that

idiot
on

the
phone
talk

straight to me if you can't talk right to

that

idiot
honestly
stay

off
the phone with
that
idiot
around
i
don't

want

you

to be God like it

is

easy to be

God
on
that

party

line

there

is
no

God

like that idiot
in
line to become

one

you don't want
to

become

one
with

that
idiot
trust

me
you

don't

want

to

behave
like

that
is

God

just because because
because
God

is

imagined

to
be
on

some

kind

of party line like that

idiot

yes
no

God is like

that
more

like

that than this
is

one

of
those

because
they

hate

this on the

phone

they don't want this all
over

the

phone
trying

to
stop

you

from
using

it fairly effectively
check

those
out

right

now

because because because
they
are

not

God

yes
they

are

not God thank
you

very

much
Hare
Krsna
God
doesn't

want
me
to give bad

association
to

God

it

is

so
nice
to
be
giving

God

a flower or just to
be

giving

God
by the sound of it

those
are

not

bad

giving
the

milk
of human kindness
some

consideration but give

them

God

in

the form of

sound
and

see

what

happens

see
what
happens to them and how

they
react to being

on

the

phone
with you so

suddenly

the phone can
be

dangerous

as
all

get

out
dear
you

see
that

idiot

is on the

phone
get
off

chanting Hare Krsna

nicely
there

is

no other way i am
confessing

to

there

being an idiot on the

phone

now get off

the

phone you idiot

there
is

nothing
wrong

with
having
one

party

line
with God on

our

side but the
simple

fact of the matter is
God
doesn't
like
being on the phone all
the

time

with
you

idiot
get

off

the
phone

i

am

not impressed with the war
you

started with her on the
phone
a great many

of
us
can't

wait

for

God
to
kick you off like this
is
the
end

of

a

beautiful

friendship
with no one
that
idiot
says

it

all
is too complicated for them to understand

a

beautiful friendship but we know
different
to

be

or
not

to be that

is

the
weird

question don't answer

that

don't

ask
don't

answer
that
question
like
me

and

you

we are beyond
that

which the nothingness

based

creep
of

time

has
to

offer
don't
ask

me

why

don't ask me why i

am

chanting Hare Krsna i am

not
going

to

answer
to
that

no

nothingness no nothingness

based
creep
of

time
is

real fighting time

chanting
Hare Krsna with

me
i
am

chanting Hare Krsna the good

fight

is
real
timing
she
never

asks

me why it

is

time

to
fight the good

the

passionate

and
the

ignorant
she

depends

on
that

idiot to get
her

stuff

through

you
see

like a ghost
yes

you

experience

her
timing

as
she

has

some

strange stuff to get through

that

idiot
but

since

or

as i have

no

presence in the
matter

to

call

my own just like that

she
says
it

is

your

excuse
for
illusion
and
i

should

chant Hare Krsna nicely a

good

fight a good

fight
for

God

it

is

a good fight

for
her
a

passionate fight for
God

it

is

a passionate fight for her an ignorant fight it
is

an ignorant fight for her

there

is
no

God to fight

for

her in ignorance
she
takes

ignorance
seriously for the

most
part with that

idiot

around
memorable

to me i
am

forgetting it all

the
time all the
time
like
through

that idiot nothingness

lowing

if
or
what

if
so

what

to

do
lowing

lowing

oh what to

do
what

a
to

do
i

mean
that

is

a fine how

do
you do a
cow
is
lowing

oh

oh

can
i

get

a

witness i don't

like
it
it

is
to

me

the

sound of suffering
i

will

share
and

share

alike

such
a thing such

a

thing
they

say
there

is

time
for such a

thing

but
can't

i

just

get

a

witness all i

want

is a witness and the
cow
is

lowing

oh isn't it
just
the
truth
though
there
is
time

but
i

wish

i

had more time
you

know
they

say

there
is

more

time
but

can

i
get

a witness on

time

a

cow

is
lowing
isn't

there

a
witness

to this has

all

the time gone
in

like

time

immemorial is it
creepy

time

now
a
time

then a time
for
so

called

nothingness creeping along in time like a

snake

in the grass

what

is
that

no

nothingness
creep

of

time
for

fighting

for God i wonder what
would

it

be

like

having
nothing

like

that

time

but
it

doesn't
matter
God

likes

to fight for

nothing
like
this

at

all
you

know

He can do

that
instead
yes
so
go

on
get

with

it

fight for nothing
like
that

at

all otherwise honestly

you
know what to

do

yes

you
know

what
a

to

do that has

been
already yes better to stay with the
devil
you
know

they

say

so
don't

interrupt me i am chanting Hare Krsna
nicely
knowing

full

well

how

we

can't

be all the
same

in

mind

body and words
fighting
for

nothing
like this at

all

there

is
nothing to fight

for

like

this
trust

me
i

am

not fighting for
nothing

like

this

at
all

mind

you she is
strange

that
way
she

will

fight

with

you

for
this
hell
she
will

fight
for
this with you

just

ask

and
ye
shall

receive directions if need be

this
is fun by

the

way

don't
ask me why
she
never
asks

me

why

this

is
so much fun
she
is
laughing

even

as
i

am
chanting Hare Krsna so suddenly
listen

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

see
her
she

is

laughing

even as i

am

chanting Hare Krsna so suddenly she is
laughing

at

me
being

different

too she loves to laugh
at

it

all

the

time
fighting

for

nothing like this

makes
her

laugh
even
as

i

am
chanting Hare Krsna nicely like

this

she

never
asks

why
it
is

so

much

fun she just
laughs

like
it

similarly
she
has

fun
with
this

and

there

is
nothing
we

can
do about it
so
suddenly
like

this

see
she

is

laughing i told you so
there
she is laughing
now
what

do
you

want

me to do
with
her

laughter
go

on
tell

her what you
want

me
to
do

with

her

laughter
i
dare

you

to

ask her what to do

with
me

too
go

on

it

can't

hurt
to
ask
her
all

that

much
if

at
all
so
suddenly
but

there

is only one

way
to

find

out
how

it

is

her

yes
her way or

no

so

suddenly
her

yes
her

way

or no way
i
am

not

going
to

do

you
see

i

am in no

way

going to do

it

all

is

getting
done

through her idiot and that

three
modes of material

so

i

am
chanting Hare Krsna nicely yes

even

as
she

is

laughing

it
off
so

suddenly
so

suddenly

so suddenly it

is

her you see

her
she

has
that

way

about
her

laughing

it

off all the

time
you can see

her

she

never
asks
me

why

i

am

chanting

Hare Krsna nicely so suddenly
it
is

her

you see her
she
is

laughing

it

off

all the time even as
i

am

in

no
way

it chanting Hare Krsna nicely she is

laughing

that
is

maya

she

says
you

can't

chant

Hare Krsna nicely
so

suddenly

so

suddenly so suddenly
no

one like me

can
ever chant Hare Krsna nicely
like
that
no

she

is
laughing

it
off

alright

but
you

see

that

don't

you
so

don't
be like me go on

you

can't
chant

Hare Krsna nicely

like

me
you

know
she

said

so

laughing

it

off
she

laughs

it
off

all

the time she
has

no

time
for this now

by
the way no
time
for
this

no

time

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

see
her
she

has

no

time left over

yes

no

yes
no

yes
no
time to chant Hare Krsna nicely with

me

like

this
so

suddenly
laughing
it

off

all the time
is

like

having
no

time
for
this

so

suddenly
trust

me
she
says

so

herself
you can tell by the

way

she
laughs

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

the

trance of self

realization

is
like

that
yes

like
being
on

the
phone

to

each
other

one

is
like that on

the

phone we are

like

each

other
one

for
one

with

one

God
remembering

it

is a party

line

that

keeps
us
in

a

trance

of
self

realization as this goes on

at

it

again
and

again
she
tries

it
out
on me for

some

of what is not yes some of
that

which is not

this
and

all

that
is

not
this
is

some
of her she

has
some

more
too
it

is

some

more it yes as she is

trying

it out on
me
it

is
some of what

is

not
yes

some of that
which

is
not

this
is

some
she

wants

more

of some she

tries
it

out

on me to

get
more
she

has to have
more
all

the

time
extremely

quickly

laughing
it

off
she

has
more she wants

more
she is more

she

is
some
she

tries
it

out

on
me

to

get
some of that

which
is
not
this
in

line

with
the party line

so

in this way i am
late

to
the

party as that

which
is
not

this
goes

on
in

line

with
one
way

of

thinking
it

is

God
i
am

missing
in a trance of self

realization
that is not

this

by
half

and

how

can
i
argue

with

that

which
is
not

love
the

way

you
feel

by

the way or get lost
like
it

used

you for some

of

that which is
not

very
funny
even

if
she

is

laughing
it

off

pretty

quickly like this so suddenly
one

has to love
you

have
some

of

that
which is not

this

in
mind
but do you

mind
how

i

love
the

way

i
feel
because

of

that
no

i don't think so at

all
so

suddenly
we

listen
we

can't

help

but
listen we are

listening

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare