one

playing with ether
and

i

am

playing
with

pain

on a shoe

string
one

is

playing

with

the
fire

in a strange
computative
round

boot

camp of sorts one is

playing
with

a

little

earth
and

i

am

playing
with pain on

a

shoe

string
one is playing

with

water and i

am
playing

with

pain

on

a shoe string one is
playing

with

air

so where am i you

might
as

well

ask

one

to take off

that

shoe and beat the mind
with

a

stick
too there are

times
it

pays

off like using intelligence to

stop

acting
in

all kinds of
it

look at it

this

way i am

playing
with

pain
so

stop

acting
like
it

happens
just

so

to be whatever

that

was

all
about
and

i

am

playing
with

it

too

i am not playing with
it

i

am

playing with pain

there

is a distinction

between
the

kind

of rules one

plays

by in character like it
is

all

one

as one is

not

very

funny and the
way

one
takes

it

seriously

so
what

is

that

distinction

formulating

so
seriously
you

might
as

well

ask
you

know

who
to

ask

and some will

say
ask

ask

me

ask

me
how

i

feel

about

playing
with the rules

first

and
then
oh

then
i
will
tell
you

the truth so

suddenly
yes
no

yes no yes no one else
it

is

that
kind

of
truth one always

had
always

had

a

little

more

subjective
truth

than

that

you see that

objective

truth

is
a
pain
i
feel

it

is
i am playing

with

pain
at

any

rate
one

has

been
explained

you

know

one has been

explained
away yes over

analyzed

murdered
in

a
condition

of life one

has

been

character

assassinating
that

one

acting
like
it

is

the

thing
to

do as one

plays

by the rules i am playing with

pain

as
one

plays by the

rules

that way you
know

what i am

playing

with

pain
by

what

set
of

rules

am
i

playing

with

pain
you

might

as well ask

so
suddenly playing with
nothing
much
at

all like this

stuff
strange

rules

for

strange

strange
strangers

one
is

playing

with

and
i

am

playing

with pain you
know
pain

is

a
little

more than nothing

much

at

all
so

suddenly
so
go

on

ask
yourself

this

ask yourself what
hurts
yes

feel

your

own

pain
i

am

playing
you

might

say i am
acting
you

know

like a player
you

don't

know

very
well
so suddenly and

it

hurts
so

what

to

do
it

is

such
a

long

introduction
one

feels

like

saying

it

has

to
go

on

it

must
go

on

the

show

must go on like that
so

how

does

one
play
with

it
anyway

it

is
just

an

intro

duction are we

continually

to

be
are

we

to

be

continually inducted into
it

so

suddenly
playing

around

as

i

am
playing
with
pain
who

are

we

to
say
it

just

so

happens to be

whatever

that
was

all
about
whatever

that

was all about
it

is

just
an introduction so

suddenly

after the other
one

after
the

other

we

don't
understand
maya like i do that

would

be
such

an

unwieldy

waste of time
like

wondering wondering why why those

made

to
make

one wonder why so suddenly
dear

so suddenly so
suddenly

does

this

hurt by the way no i don't think so you know
what
hurts

at

any rate i

am

busy so suddenly dear mind
it

is

like

fussing over small

talk
as

it

is

reality

in effect it

is
of no consequence to say

it

is

illusion
or

void
not

in

the fantastic fanatic

awe

and
reverence

field
mind

you
it

is

split

in two over

the

oneness

of

small talk and
split

in

two
over the difference

one

makes in effect
saying
it

is

not
right

you're right or
wrong
it

is

not wrong you
are

wrong

or
right
no

grey

area

for

you
like
it

we

live

in

millions
of

different

lives all alive

for
now

forever

being

reborn
one

after

the other we

are

as
they

say out of

luck
and

yet

to
be
accounted for at full speed

as

such yes yes

yes

nothing

much

to
them
all although i

wouldn't

say

one

is nothing much

to

them it is

moving

but

nothing
much to them is is what i wouldn't say

is

it now dear

mind

you

nothing
much to them

is

a

start

or a stop

can't

you remember which

one

though
i
wouldn't

say

it

is
nothing

to

say

it

is an illusion

both
sides
now

again

say

it
is

an

illusion

if

you
listen to yourself

very

very
carefully

you

might
be
just

saying
you

know

very

well

what

i
am

saying to you about being
alive

so suddenly you

do
so

identify

with
being

wrong

or

right about being

wrong

for each other
dear
mind

you

the split is

how

shall i say
splitting
my

this
i

mean
these

sides

a

little
all

these

friends

around

here
say

so

what

is

next
at any rate

so

what
do
you

remember

shri
Krsna
all

the

same
i

most

certainly
do

not

say

so

all the time
who

would

say

who all the
time
one

says
so

what
they

say

is
an
illusion
nothing
to get for

yourself

question
mark

you

see

it is they
say

an
illusion

for

Krsna

to
be

real with us like it
if
i

am
nothing like it
is
like
fantastic
so
what

they say is

it
is

an

illusion has been
already
nothing to get
for
yourself

here
they

say

it

is

an illusion to

get
for yourself like

it
is such a

joke

to
get
it for yourself but hey

go

on get it
for

yourself
if

it

is

such
a
joke
you
might

as

well get it

eh

ha
ha

ha it is
an
illusion

nothing

much

to

them dear mind
you

nothing

much
to

them

is

a
start

eh

yes dear go

on
get
it

like a kind

of

dog

retrieving
a

ball

and

bring
it

back
around

you

will
get

it

all

the
time
in the world
is
a
ball

of nervous energy
not

like
Krsna
no

He

is

mighty

fine He is not too
sleepy
like

a

little

guy

sweet

and

cherishable
like

a

man

of
the hour He

is

known to be

personal

in

more

ways
than

one like a fine fashionable

young
lady

He

is

irresistibly
smart

looking

around at you

lookers

you

you

on

lookers
He is like
a

boy
too

much

like

a great soul

is

aware of being
kind

you

can

kind

of
imagine Him being

all

kinds

of
interesting in a

characterized

way
you
know

yes

have
you

ever

seen

Shambu chasing Mohini

like
mad
it

is

how

shall

i

say
interesting

so

suddenly
to

think

of Krsna like this so
much

for

that
at

any

rate
let's

move

on

to the word

of
God
you
say
okay

like

it

matters

what

you
think

i am trying

to
make
of

it

so

suddenly dear yes and i

find

that

very

interesting
but

nothing
is

an illusion all the same Hare Krsna

never

ask

why
you

stop

it all the
time

no

matter
what
that

was

all
about
it

has to stop
all

the

time
dear mind so

one

never asks why
it

has

to
stop

all

the

time

no substitute for experience no
no
yes

no

yes
no
chant Hare Krsna or die

out

just

chant

Hare Krsna nicely

no

artificial repression is quite sure

ultimately

there

is

failure the senses
require
real engagement if
they
are

not
engaged in the transcendental loving

service

of the Lord they will certainly seek

engagement

in the service of materialism
enough
enough

impersonal
and voidist fantasies are never

as

seriously taken into consideration like
it

as

the

very

idea
of

one

size fits all

illusion
fails

jaya
sri Radhe Hare Krsna listen

fantasies
are

never

as seriously taken into consideration like it

as

the very idea of one

size

fits all illusion

fails
one

is

charged
to
feel

at
home Hare Krsna and feeling

at

home
around

here
somewhere
means

it

is going to
take
some

time

to
come
to

any

conclusion

about
it yes quite

some

time

jaya

sri

Radhe
jaya

sri

Krsna
as worship is

different

you know the

english
word is different from the

sanskrit

bhaja is different the english

word

worship
conveys

a

somewhat
different idea about

love

of

God

as compared to the sanskrit
word

bhaja

dear
just

like
having

a

working relationship is

different

as compared to
just
having

one

in
time

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare

tenderly
tenderly
you

awaken

your
very
young
Jaganatha svami from
rest
with the early

morning
spirit

of

archana

paddhati

listen
listen

and

listen
listen listen to the way

He
feels
early

after
a

little

rest

tenderly
tenderly

you
awaken

your very young
Jaganatha

svami from rest

early
listen to the

way
He

feels

you

can

hear
Him

feeling

early
He
is
early in the
morning
early
in

the

morning
you
tell
you
tell

Him

He
is the earliest
to
know
you
feel
alive
with
Him
tenderly after a

nice
rest

there
is

no

substitute
for

experience no substitute for experience
listen

listen

and
listen and and chant and chant Hare Krsna nicely He is

early
in
the

morning

after
a nice rest tenderly awaken
Him

to

know

you
feel
alive with Him
tenderly
after

a
nice rest there
is

no
substitute

for

experience
as

usual
listen
listen

and

listen

Hare Krsna no false ego for you

Hare

Krsna

listen
and
listen
Hare Krsna there
the

Lord of threes

is

ready

for
the

morning

archana

paddhati
after

a

nice little rest
listen

listen and listen
early

no sitting in on the
mind

as

one

for

one
can't
even

handle

the

difference

between

wrong and right
one

easily
forgets

time

immemorial

for

one

as one can't
even

handle

the

difference between wrong and right

with
one
no

shipping

one

around in a

way

one

might
find

oneself

playing

with

the
most

dangerous one like
it

is fine by

one

so suddenly dear
no

there's a storm
passing

through i tell

myself
it

doesn't
have

to

be that way

i

tell

myself
i

tell
myself but those

are

unkind to the

vulnerable

so

there
it is a

storm

passing

strange

within
is

the
unblinking

eye

of
lust and no

self
defense
against
the
dark

dark

art

of manipulation so

there

is a storm

passing
i

tell

myself
it

doesn't

have
to

be

that way i
tell

myself
but

those

are

unkind to the
vulnerable
so

there

it is a
storm

passing
strange

within

is

the
unblinking

eye
of

lust and no

self
defense
against
the
dark

dark
art

of manipulation so

there

there's a storm

passing

through i tell

myself
it

doesn't

have
to
be that way
i
tell

myself

i

tell

myself but those
are
unkind to the

vulnerable
so

there

it is a
storm

passing
strange

within

is
the

unblinking

eye

of

lust and no

self
defense
against

the

dark

dark
art
of manipulation so

there

is a storm
passing

i

tell

myself

it

doesn't
have

to
be
that way i

tell

myself

but

those

are

unkind to the

vulnerable
so

there

it is a

storm

passing
strange
within

is
the

unblinking

eye

of

lust and no

self
defense
against
the
dark
dark
art
of manipulation so

there

devastatingly impersonal devastatingly

envious
same

difference
they

don't

that's
all

jealousy
being

jealous

of

what they have

to

offer

being

jealous
of
the

self

based

personality
one

has

to offer one
says

don't and we

don't

fancy it even

crazy

talk yes because of all the crazy
talk

about false ego
you

might

or

might
not

be
the
only one unaware

of

the
full

false

ego

inventory
of

who

it
is

right

there
on

the
line
and

why

and it is

so
like

you

have to wait for one

to
be
ready

for

one
wondering
one

more

time

one with a
little

intelligence

can

astonish
one

might even feel
one

is God or

at

least

as
good

as

God

once

one
is

timing

out

wise though i mean is
it

wise

how

would
you

feel

like timing out
just

because

because

because i am
smart

enough

to

dismiss

the
way i feel

so

suddenly

inactive

in
action

suspended animation you
say
so

what

am i doing

with

you

then

pray

tell
better

not
go

insane
with

me

at any rate
the

way i feel

so

suddenly

inactive

in

action

suspended animation you
say
so
what
am i doing

with

you

then
pray

tell

better

not
go
insane

with
me

at any rate i am
jealous

of

myself
no

no
no
no

no

yes
oh

you

got

that right there

is
no

substitute

for experience in
memory

quite

like

this
and

that which is
not

this as it
is

still

around
so

far

as that goes

even

or
gets

even with this
that

and

the

other thing is
one

has to be

pretty

far out to

forget

it for nothing
in
time

for

the same thing
most

especially

since
or

as

nothing
is

the

same
thing

like this that

and

the other thing
in

a way you

know

nothing
is

a substitute for
experience

just

like

i said yes
no

yes no yes
no
yes no yes

no

yes

no
yes no substitute for experience

you

can't

get
over

even
as

that

says

no

you

can't
always get what

you

want
nor

can

you

always

rid
it of that

which
is
not

what is wanted

naturally
one

has

a little independence
only

as
it

goes

on
in a kind

of

marked
camp

haven't i been
patient

though

well

yes

kind

of

you
know what knowing

the

difference between knowledge and realized
knowledge
one

can

understand
how

makeshift

fiddly
dee

oneness

of a kind

bewilders

brains to a parlous fault

and

if
i

was to go
and

tell

you

concentrating
to

go

and tell you

that

was just a

lie

there

just
a

little

lie

one

could
say

you

would

say
well it's too

late
in the here and now and you
would
be
still

around obviously brains

are

bewildered

beyond
self

help

so

suddenly
and

somewhat

impatiently jaded towards
gurus

brains

are
of
feverish

mentality
so

you
believe

what

you

hear

to a certain

extent
only

yes

exactly
that

is
what

is going on

never

mind

envy

that
is
makeshift to begin

with

that's
all

more

like

jealousy
out

there
we

have
in

mind to feel ourselves first

not
you

or
the

next

one with a

real
little

help

from

friends

we
feel

ourselves first having

only

a little independence
with

which
to

work if ever
we

have

a
mind

to

continue

doing
so
now

though i mean

right

now

sure

some will say we are
jealous

of
ourselves

and

so

far as we

keep
to

ourselves

there

is

certainly

some

truth

to
that
you

see

that
is

realizable

knowledge envy first is not
there

like

it

never has been

first

of

all

there is no
envy

like
mad

at

first

sight

that

is

makeshift
you can lie

to

yourself about the

need
to

hold

yourself
in

by

cracky

is right around
here

somewhere

but

no

one
is
just

envious if you
do
such

nonsense

it
is

to

say
one

is
so envious at first no one is

at
all

envious

at

first

like

this
one

is

shy kind of inhibited a

little
that

is

understandable
but

how

envious
am

i
at

first

i

can't

even

relate to others until i
am

confidant

of

myself you see
that
no

envy

at first that is not what happened
never

mind

why

one to oneself
lied
stop it you

stop

that
nonsense

lying
there

is

no
original envy and

yes

no yes no

yes
no

original
goof

whatsoever
how

one

thing

led
to

another

has no bearing on the

essentials

of
truth

the

truth
is

i

am jealous of
myself

and

it

is

going
to

take

some

doing
yet to fix
that
you
see

that you see

that

you

see
that

you
see that you

see
that

you

see
that
you
see
that

you
see
that

love is for

Krsna

you
know

that

love
is different and

how

we

are

glad as we
are

determined to be

simultaneously

different

that
is

in

our nature we are experiencing
the
sensation

of

being

simultaneously

one

and

different
it

is

the

oneness part with

which
we

have

struggled since time
immemorial
no

one

wants

to

be just one

with

you
dear

heart
no

one

can
take it that
way
we
have

to

be

different first if
one
is

in

need
of

thinking

about

which

one

came first it
is

the

different

one

obviously
being

devoted

to

the

divine
one

considers that as

knowledge
one

is

glad
of

it

glad

to know you

are

not me and
we

are

just

as
different

as the divine in our
own

little

qualified

way
no

envy

is

fashioning

a

single

sense
that

slant

of

envy is all

down

thumbs
down
to absolute pink some say yes but

go

on
envy
no

envy

do

not

tell

others

they

are

envious

of

each

other

or
God
in
pink
you

can't

tell

God

that nonsense don't

try

telling

God
we

are

envious
that

will not work
nothing

is
going
to
work
like

that

one

is

never
solely
one so stop

it

stop making excuses like that
dear

heart

chant

Hare Krsna nicely

there

is
no

envy
in

it

there

to

bother

with

only
a

little

to no effect

independently

related
as

it
is

simply a personality

trait

what
we

have here is
a

failure

to

communicate
because

of steaming jealousy related to

over

emphasized

oneness
now

you

see
that

is

realized
go

on

chant Hare Krsna

nicely
don't

worry

about

being

envious
no

one

minds

Krsna as He

is

interesting
as

He

is
full

of

Himself we love

Him

there

is
no

consequential
envy to speak

of

in
our

relationship

with

Sri Krsna dear

heart
oneness

is

not

to

be

over

emphasized that's all
we
don't

like

you

see
that

how

are we ever
thought

of as being so envious
of

Krsna

if we are not partial
to

being
so

like

one

another
no

we
are
in

need

of expressing ourselves

further

that's

all
we
want

to

see

how

we

are
quite

different in our
oneness

yes

simultaneously

different

as much as

one

of us i am glad to be
far
from

God

in my dear

little

independence

and

not
too

too close to
God
as

one

of
us

i

am

interested
to

see

further

how

the
furthering

of

one's relationship with

Krsna

is of interest like this

as

this
is

never

leaving

me
with

an
over

emphasized

sense

of oneness nor

do
i

feel

in the least bit envious like this

as
this is next
you

see Hare Krsna all glories
to

those

expressing

themselves without that
however

deserved
modern

weird

and

so

unfortunately

famous

unity
of
envy

in

Krsna
consciousness

yes
yes

yes
listen
yes
listen
and

listen
dear

no
envy
for

you

it

is

just

as

real
no

illusion no veiled

threat

of
non

existence
is

necessary
to
motivate
you
my

dear

mind you are

self

motivated obviously at
your

own risk to a great
extent
you

are

free

to
go
but

not without Krsna

in

the
form

of
super

soul
eh
no

not

alone with her
she

never asks why

you

are
so

mindful of her
dear
mind

she
understands

what

is

happening
in

fact
she

is
no

fool
from

time

immemorial
she

will
take

you

to
task
dear

mind
yes

no yes no

yes
no
you
had
better
chant Hare Krsna
though
and
if

need be tell

everyone
they

are

envious
of

Krsna

for

some

strange

reason
who

knows

it

might
work
for

her
eh
i

mean

you

have

to
do

what
you

are

told

to

a greater extent
than

i
dear

mind
listen

listen
and

listen
once

i was told
one

plus one equals
one
and

you

just have to

know

how
one

is

beyond

time and space
with
very

little

interest
in
gravity relatively speaking

dear

mind listen how
i

said

how
i

was

told

once
you just have

to

know

how
one

is

beyond time and
space
with

very

little

interest
in gravity relatively speaking one

you
know one you

know

one
you

know

one
better

than
how one is

rightly

situated
but

hey

listen
listen and listen

this
is
next

even

as it is
how

one

is
situated relative to

this
she

knows

you
dear

mind
she

knows

how

you
are

yes no yes no yes no one else has
too

much

potential

like

you
are known to

her

she

is

precious
that

way

precious

little

one
out
of

maya

you

go

as

one

is

better

off
even
so

much

better
off than in

her

way

precious
the

pretence

is

not

to

be
over

analyzed by the
way
so

she

never

asks
why

you

were

in

like
that
you

know
like

that

envy
yes
not

her
that

would

be

just
wrong

dear
it

is

just

wrong

to be in with her
yes

wrong

to

be in on
it

with

her
i

am
only
it

for

the
funny

business
dear
mind
yes
no
yes
no
yes
no

you
had

better
be

chanting Hare Krsna

though

and
if
need be tell

everyone

they
are

envious

of

Krsna

for

some

strange
reason
who

knows

it

might

work
for

her

eh

i

mean
you

have
to

do

what

you
are

told

to
a greater extent

than
i

dear

mind
listen

listen
and

listen
once

i was told

one

plus one equals
one
and

you

just have to

know

how

one
is

beyond
time and space

with
very

little

interest
in

gravity relatively speaking
dear

mind listen how

i

said

how

i
was

told

once

you just have
to

know

how

one
is

beyond time and

space
with

very

little

interest
in gravity relatively speaking one

you
know one you

know
one
you

know

one

better

than

how one is

rightly

situated

but

hey

listen
listen and listen
this
is
next
even
as it is

how

one

is

situated relative to
this
she

knows

you

dear
mind
she

knows

how

you
are

yes no yes no yes no one else has
too

much

potential

like

you
are known to
her
she
as

she
is

precious
that
way

precious

little
one
out

of

maya

you

go

as

one

is

better

off

even
so

much

better

off than in

her

way

precious
the

pretence
is

not

to

be
over

analyzed by the

way

so
she

never

asks
why
you

were
in

like

that
do

you

think it is

envy
to

be
in

like

that
so

suddenly

how

one
is

envious

i

can't

say
like
that

that is weird
that

is

so

weird
you

know

what
that
is

just

wrong
but
yes
i
can

understand
how

one

says
it

is

envy

dear

mind
envy
yes

envy
but

it
is

wrong

you

know

you

can

call it envy like you
know

it

is

just

like

that

wrong
you

know
no

matter

how
one

twists
it

is

twisted
further

into

being

wrong
just

wrong

call

it

envy
call

it

whatever
it

is

wrong

always

twisting
around
to

be

just

wrong
yes like it

is

based

on

envy
it

is

in

so

many
ways
contrary
to popular belief i mean
you

i mean it

is

not

you

though

see

what
i
am

saying

it

is

that which is
not

what you think
it
is

dear
no

matter

what

one

says
it

is

that
which
is
not
so

it

is just wrong

somehow

or
other

call
it

what

you

will it is

just

wrong
dear

so

wrong
it has to

stop
all

the

time
wrong

it

has

to

stop
all

the

time dear mind
go

on
it

is

stopping
all

the

time
you

see
how
it

is

stopping

all the time it is

stopping
all

the

time in reality

the
inevitable
one

goes

on

seeing how it
is

stopping

all the time

one

is

going
on

or
by
it

is

stopping
so

one

only says it
is

time
immemorial
in a way

one

remembers

how

it is time

immemorial
in

reality

the inevitable one

realizes
Krsna
is

different to remember
Krsna

is the spice
of

life

one
is

going

and

it
is
going
to stop all the time
all

the

time

as

one

is

chanting
Hare Krsna  that which is

not

is just wrong

dear
don't be envious

basically

all
we

are saying is
don't

be envious because
it

is

just
wrong
go

on
don't

be
envious

dear
mind
it

is
just

wrong

to be in maya as
one

is

chanting

Hare Krsna nicely

we

don't

understand
maya like i do that

would

be

such

an
unwieldy
waste of time
to
be
in
maya as one
is

chanting Hare Krsna nicely we

don't

understand
maya
like

i

do
that
which
is
not

would

be such a waste of

time
as
one

is chanting Hare Krsna nicely
that

which is not
is

just

wrong
we

don't

understand
that

which is not like i

do

no
one

is

too

envious for that
which
is

you
and
i
like
one

plus

one

equaling

one
in the presence of the

most

attractive
eh

no

that

would

be
just

wrong
and so would

you
be
wrong

to
understand

maya
like
i

do
that

which

is not that

would
be

unwieldy

you
know

that

would be an
unwieldy
waste

dear

mind an unwieldy

waste

of
time

as

it
is

just
wrong as one

is
chanting Hare Krsna nicely go

on
revealing the mind as you

know

how

it
is

not

my

understanding
of
maya

that makes it
so
one

is

in
maya
dear

mind
listen

listen
and
listen

the Lord of
threes
is

smart

by
the

way
you

know
to

say

the

least
listen

listen

and
listen
the
Lord of threes knows how
you
are

in
on
it

and

knows

how

one
is

interested

in
being

around in spirit

only


making so many
distinctions

for

a

reason
as
she

never
asks

why
i have to

realize

how

i
was

in

on it one

would

somehow

or
other

say

naturally

as
this is next so i

listen
i
listen
and
listen
as
this
is
next

one

has
to express oneself but one

is

always
listening

somehow you know

one

is

more
than
a

little fond of
the

sound

of
one

listening

as

one

expresses oneself by

way
of

being

simultaneously
one
and

different
one
is

always

listening

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna
Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare
in on it