| in a kind of concentration camp haven't i been patient though well yes kind of you know what knowing the difference between knowledge and realized knowledge one can understand how makeshift fiddly dee oneness of a kind bewilders brains to a parlous fault and if i was concentrating to go and tell you that was a lie there one could say you would say well it's too late in the here and now and you would be still around obviously brains are bewildered beyond self help so suddenly and somewhat impatiently jaded towards gurus brains are of feverish mentality so you believe what you hear to a certain extent only yes exactly that is what is going on never mind envy that is makeshift to begin with that's all more like jealousy out there we have in mind to feel ourselves first not you or the next one we feel ourselves first if ever we have a mind to continue doing so now some will say we are jealous of ourselves and so far as we keep to ourselves there is certainly some truth to that you see that is realizable knowledge envy first is not there like it never has been first of all there is no envy like mad at first sight that is makeshift you can lie to yourself about the need to hold yourself in by cracky is right around here somewhere but no one is just envious if you do such nonsense it is to say one is so envious at first no one is at all envious at first like this one is shy kind of inhibited a little that is understandable but how envious am i at first i can't even relate to others until i am confidant of myself you see that no envy at first that is not what happened never mind why one to oneself lied stop it you stop that nonsense lying there is no original envy and yes no yes no yes no original goof whatsoever how one thing led to another has no bearing on the essentials of truth the truth is i am jealous of myself and it is going to take some doing yet to fix that you see that you see that you see that you see that you see that you see that you see that you see that love is for Krsna you know that love is different and how we are glad as we are determined to be simultaneously different that is in our nature we are experiencing the sensation of being simultaneously one and different it is the oneness part with which we have struggled since time immemorial no one wants to be just one with you dear heart no one can take it that way we have to be different first if one is in need of thinking about which one came first it is the different one obviously being devoted to the divine one considers that as knowledge one is glad of it glad to know you are not me and we are just as different as the divine in our own little qualified way no envy is fashioning a single sense that slant of envy is all down thumbs down to absolute pink go on envy no envy do not tell others they are envious of each other or God you can't tell God that nonsense don't try telling God we are envious that will not work nothing is going to work like that one is never solely one so stop it stop making excuses like that dear heart chant Hare Krsna nicely there is no envy in it there to bother with only a little to no effect as it is simply a personality trait what we have here is a failure to communicate because of steaming jealousy related to over emphasized oneness now you see that is realized go on chant Hare Krsna nicely don't worry about being envious no one minds Krsna as He is interesting as He is full of Himself we love Him there is no consequential envy to speak of in our relationship with Sri Krsna dear heart oneness is not to be over emphasized that's all we don't like you see that how are we ever thought of as being so envious of Krsna if we are not partial to being so like one another no we are in need of expressing ourselves further that's all we want to see how we are quite different in our oneness yes simultaneously different as much as one of us i am glad to be far from God in my dear little independence and not too too close to God as one of us i am interested to see further how the furthering of one's relationship with Krsna is of interest like this as this is never leaving me with an over emphasized sense of oneness nor do i feel in the least bit envious like this as this is next you see Hare Krsna all glories to those expressing themselves without that however deserved modern weird and so unfortunately famous unity of envy in Krsna consciousness yes yes listen Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare so in maya one thinks of oneself as fallen from the spiritual express yourself and get out i am not one with you like that it would be maya for me to think of you like that no maya you chant Hare Krsna no maya for you like this we can't think of ourselves as one in maya like this no you no it is if you want to think of yourself as in maya fallen from the spiritual fine you're on your own then slow slower and slowest around and around risky business express yourself in and under the direction of Krsna consciousness though and you are at home going at speed simultaneously one and different inconceivable as that sounds so suddenly the hang of it is cool with a kind warmth you know yes Hare Krsna God speed the lingering mental demon of over estimated oneness will dissipate in kind as there is a difference i mean don't say it is me by way of association that is maya i am not maya i do not dissipate or like maya dissolute what goes on in the mirror is reflection that's all no way is it maya to be reflected the perverted reflection is another thing i could go on and on about it all you know it is not me i am singing as you were reflecting upon the earth water fire air ether mind intelligence and whatever that was all about is not you being God for me to relate to others so be careful about that oneness and difference that is so inconceivable simultaneously according to a crook i don't mind speaking a little yes crookedly and yes i know who is crooked like this yes already no ifs ands or buts just be careful stop look and listen for Krsna around her she is not likely to ask why you know her she never asks me why you know her she never asks why we know her she is the reason why one has to be careful yes careful so i sing Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare yes at any rate she might say i sing Hare Krsna to be careful with her but that's alright let her be that way she is not me to say how i feel you know chanting Hare Krsna i am apt to be just as careful with the sunshine as the moonshine i don't drink you know what i am saying try to understand maya and you will get what i am saying it is crooked yes all one has to say is hey or and chant Hare Krsna nicely in response to others chanting Hare Krsna nicely go on Krsna is listening and nicely aware of why she never asks why go on you like being close to God don't you go on chant Hare Krsna nicely that clown is not scary to her she knows why listen don't ask me why i am busy it is different too you see simultaneously yes no yes no yes no it is not me i am seeing how one is simultaneously different precisely because it is not me listen you see that is not me and you want to chant Hare Krsna trust me you sure want to chant Hare Krsna that way alone with her as she is leaving me out of it yes dear mind no i can't stop it she has to listen or failing that move out further i can't stop it in time for her or you listen no stopping i am not going to stop it okay i am just now going to sit down for what feels like an eternity already and chant Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare okay okay you stop it go on stop it there you see she is crying stop it yourself okay go on stop it there is no other way yes there is a war going on between demons and ghosts now you stop that nonsense and chant Hare Krsna nicely go on it feels like forever already i can't wait to see you stop it now go on stop it and chant Hare Krsna nicely go on it is taking forever already but you stop it as you please dear mind i am listening to no other one no other one is mental like you so you go on yes keep on stopping it dear mind go on stop it all from getting out on time so suddenly you can do the business of the mind is to stop it all the time listen stop it and chant Hare Krsna nicely like i said go on stop it stop acting like a ghost and yes stop acting like a demon go on don't act like an idiot it has to stop listen stop it and chant Hare Krsna nicely okay go on go on stop it obviously you have forever to stop it so what it is a working relationship dear mind what we have here is the means to stop it in our relationship so i am just saying go on keep going you have to stop it dear don't wait for me or that idiot figment of imagination to mind ignorant oneness or whatever that was all about opening out so suddenly you have time to stop it dear mind go on get up to speed God speed you my dear mind there is time to stop it all the time stop it all the time dear mind stop it nicely chanting Hare Krsna there is no other way to stop it as you will realize there is no other way no other way no other way to stop it and chant Hare Krsna nicely listen there is no other way dear stop it and chant it has to stop yes no yes no yes no i am not quitting but it has to keep on stopping dear you can tell yes yes you can tell so suddenly it is not her fault by the way no one is to blame we just want it to stop all the time somehow or other yes it has to keep on stopping dear mind go on chant Hare Krsna nicely and stop it all the time accepting it has to stop all the time it has to stop all the time dear there is no other way to stop it you stop it chanting Hare Krsna nicely i can't wait for her to stop it dear mind go on i am listening there is no way i am going to just forget it for her it has to stop all the time you see it is condemnation without a single doubt dear stop it go on Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare |
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