i
have

a

best

friend
who

must

be lonely and
a
better

one

who must have

a
sense

of

humour
around

here
somewhere
one

can
tell from there but you're

right

association

must
be
whatever

that

was
all about now

opening a window

a
little

at

a time who am i

again

though failing to remember you
know

some feel to

be

pretentious as much as some

feel

to

be
compassionate
some

have thoughts of

high
expectations
and

do

feel

to be both
one
will

gladly
prove

fancy

is a familiar

fit
sufficient for one despite all

intent

of interest to
the
sober

one

at hand some

feeling

both
so
inspired

for

the sake of
sexuality

in
general

as a means of living through one
even

as it is
the

urge to be cause in effect of late that

is

baggage for the pretentious one after

all
not

us

dwelling

not

at home with you there
is

one

now

communicating

the
sense of being

for
you

all

for you dwelling on the

intent
to

make

do

dear
you had better

get

down

to
business
it

is
none

of

my
business
the
business of the mind upon
which
you are dwelling as a result of

being

in communication with

that

one not at

home
with you or the first

very

idea that comes

to

mind
so
far

as

one can tell
you

are as it

is

said you are you know

you

are

just
now

communicating
by the way i mean

more

so than i
you

are
involved
yes

dwelling

with one dwelling
on

the
way

you

communicate
a
presence

of mind and all dear
as

it

is
like

you
to

make
do so so

listen

isn't

it

nice and kind

of

quiet
like

this here i like it
only

quiet

like

this so suddenly it is
all

so sudden but i like

it

only
quiet

like

this
yes

yes

i do i
do
and

i
am

no

where

near
as
quiet
as
it

is quiet isn't

it

quiet enough to
chant
Hare Krsna without you i

mean

you
are

not

going

to hurt me

even
as

i
am

not as quiet as it

is

after

all
one

hears

the Hare Krsna
sound
like it is
none
of my business how you
make

do dear it

is

your business you
keep

on

feeding

me

the

notion of having

accepted

foolery and rejected
the
nice

chanting
of the Hare Krsna sound in vain you act

like

you

feel

yes
you
act like you

feel
evil
is

working
you

are of course

evil

i told you
before
it

is

the
way

it makes you

push
that

is

such a bother to one

in
association

at

any rate you

know
you

have

no

more

patience
as
it

is

quiet
enough

even as i

am

not

so

quiet
still

there

it

is a way we communicate
eh
over

each

of us it has been
communicated

we

have

not

the

facility to stop

dwelling

and no one
wants
to

live
with
you

most

of all just like one
little

independent personality goes

with
all

philosophy

as one stays the course

of

reality

from
perspective at any

rate

so
what

i mean to contribute is no accusation like this
for
heaven's

sake
no
but

a sense of

need
as

one

is

around
in a mood

to

talk

over

and over again about some

feeling
of

separation

in a cautionary
tone
some

danger

is

extant

and informing the progress of
adventure
but

the
devotee

has

no

way to interrogate a one Sri Krsna
as
the

active

principle

harbinger

of any such

thing
as
nothing

at

least

that
is
purely

evident
even as the

poetry

of
His
storied

presence
empowers

no

one

else

to achieve His personal transcendence yes even

so

there is a

need

yes one we
reveal

to each other

in

confidence

as

some of our
feelings

of

separation

have

to
be

vigorously

purified in the
company

of

like

minded

individuals

with the least

possible

effort of the Lord who
is

glad
to

be

aloof

from the very idea of
interference
as it is

perverse

in nature the way one

experiences
some

feelings

of
separation
yes adventure is going

on

at any rate you know

the
ego that is

not

missing

an

unknown

quantity

in the way
sat

chit ananda means
you
somehow or other
and
how

the vigraha feature

is

true
to
form as pastimes are personal the deliberating

agent
of
mahamaya

is

of
course
mental
yes
and

no

yes

and
no
yes and no the agent
is
not

all

yours as this is next
dear
see

the

agent dear no

one

minds

the
agent like this

is

the

agency

you
have

an agent not

an

agency like this dear you

yes
we

know

the reactive sensitivity of a little

independent

agency by way
of
relationship but of course one

doesn't

mind
being

inconceivable eh dear no dear
we

are

not

afraid
of

you

right

now see the

agent

tell

the
truth dear that

is

the

way

it
goes
no

matter

no

matter
no matter what

popularity
contest
is

winning

your

heart of course

there
is an agent now you

have

to
go

and see the
agent
to

be

sure of who
i

am

mind

you
yes

how can you

know
me

any

better than that
though

that
is

quite

something
isn't

it

you

have

nothing
on

it  no one has a

single

thing

on

it and no
one
can take it

off
it

stays

so
it

doesn't

matter

how
you

feel about it
dear
that

is
the

truth

you

see

the
agent

yes dear no
you

are not after

all

the agent or

the

agency of this mentality though
i

have

referred

to

you
and

don't

mind

thinking

of you as the mind
dear
it

is

not
a

popularity contest but

it

is
known

better than me no one can know

me

better
than

that

dear

as it covers
one

over it is
known
as

it

is

not

me or you but staying
one

knows how it
is

much

better

known and how it is
not
so

important

for
one

to
know
me any better

than
that i am

different

as
usual
and

even

more

than

ever
just
like

you

not as well
known

as
it

is
dear

yes

no

matter how i

go
everyone

knows
it

better
than

me
and
one

no doubt remembers
how

i
did

with it feeling
like
no

one

knows
us

better

than

it for the same reason

we

know
it

is

real

in other words not a

joke
like

this
is

yours
in secret as
you
listen
the
way it has

gone

around i know the way
it

has

gone

around you like

you

are all ears but no
party

to the feeling of having

been
separated just this

once
yes

no

one

shares
with

you a feeling of having been separated in the

mind

there

is
no

way

to mentally convey
a

feeling of separation from the

heart
we

are

separated a little

you

know
that

is how time immemorial is

news

to
me

in as much as one says one
has

no

way

to remember it now since
time

immemorial it is news one

remembers

to
be

originally
like
this

is

next and no time yet

opening
a

window
not

that

time

will

never

open

a window dear you know
time

i

am
writing
about

time as it is about

time
to

be

opening

it

is

known
how it has

opened

no

matter

why it is

singled

out even it has opened
a

window isn't it

a

breath
of

fresh air to see it singled out

though

personally

a
few

doors

down

or

back the way

we

came
you

find
light

that makes light
of

it opening at all with reason i

like

it
there

after

all
you

can't

take

it

with you so it is

right

there and yet opening a
window
i

have

yet to open

no

one
after

all but still

there

is a breath of fresh air seeing
as

how it is

offered

a
little

water a little

flower

is

interesting

to Her one

loves
praise

be

one

loves
Her

sense

of taste and
She
has remembered Her Sri Krsna

has
taken
her

breath

away
before

dear

one the breath

of
fresh air reminds
Her
of Krsna like all flowers the aroma
of

Her

Krsna
opens

one

more

window

and
one

more soul offers a little

fresh

air by way of the

pure
in

this
way seeing purity

as
the force it opens all the way and the light falls

around

after

all

collecting like dust
is

a
little

amusing in this way so
is

any

opening

of

it
honestly
seeing

it as being

personal

you know it

at

face

value

expressed and it expresses light

opening

a
window

as

much

as a flower
opens
i

want

to offer an open flower
now

too and a little water always reminds

me

of
light
don't ask me

why

it

is

amusing i know

often

it
is

a

breath

of

fresh air to be a

little

amusing

dear
it

can

be

otherwise

after all it

can
be

difficult

in a way that is
a

little

amusing

as

well

even if it is nothing like this so suddenly

i
see

it

is

expressing
you

know

much
like
one

everything

has a face
with

an expression in

a
way

it

is just like
everything

has

me

at an advantage

at

any rate it
is

just
an

expression you know

what
i
am

saying
yes

and i don't

mind

you

see
it

comes to me

as

a

surprise

in a way it is
expressing

surprise
too
yes it is like it

knows

me from somewhere
dear

and

opening

a

window

but of course i am

chanting
Hare Krsna in

a

way that is
kind

of

different

all the same

life
is

coming
you

know

close
close

the door life

is

coming
through

the window like a breath
of
fresh

air
but that was

close

let me tell

you
too

close

for

comfort
i don't want

to

do that again
dear
close

the

door
and

take a deep

breath

She
is

thinking
of

Krsna and that's
enough

for
you

look at it

this
way

opening

a
window

is
easy

but not that

easy
just

because

because because dear

the
cause
of

all

causes
is

causeless
you

know

but i feel like talking

to
you

like

this in a
mood

because

yes
yes yes because because because

opening

a window is

easy
on

time
as

easy

as

being

causeless but not

that
easy

dear

there

is

a presence that

is

telling
so

very

telling
like opening a window it
is
not
that

easy but easy

to
tell
it

does

open
so
it

is easy to

tell

it

is

not that easy
to

make

time

like opening a
window
it

is

telling you know

some

of us can hear it
listen

as

well
and

wouldn't

you

know
it

does
listen to the Hare Krsna

mahamantra

in a timely

fashion
as
it

has

a
presence that is

telling

a
symphony

of

nothing

is
holding
go

on

and make yourself

at

home

accepting

and rejecting it
in

a timely fashion
dear
mind you are

the

one
in

a

sense

beyond

nothing
taking
it

all in letting

it

all
go
it

means

everything to you
as

nothing is holding
go
on
make
yourself at home dear you

have

the

time

for everything now
you

will
chant
Hare Krsna with me mind

you
yes
you

will

chant

very nicely dear

listen
this
is

nothing

compared
to

you
but

you

will chant Hare Krsna nicely

dear

yes
dear
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